Liquid courage???

Okay, so tonight was an interesting night...

I'm really trying to figure this out in my head...what it all means, why it's happening, etc.

We went out for Big Red's b-day party tonight and ended up at the Thirsty Turtle to listen to Sound Theory. Awesome band and they played a lot of Godsmack, Shinedown, and Seether! I definitely recommend!!!

I wasn't drinking tonight...hence the subject "Liquid Courage"...or should I say lack there of. Actually I haven't been drunk in over two weeks...for reasons that I'm not going into here, at least not yet. Let's just say that I'm enjoying waking up without a hang-over, enjoying this extra energy that I have, and enjoy the fact that I now know that I can still party with my friends without being drunk. Razz me as they may! LOL

So the crowds there tonight were normal for that bar. The one cute girl that was dancing with her boyfriend had a rockin' body, but she was missing her two front teeth! LOL - I'm not joking! ;-)

We were there to celebrate Red's b-day, so I really didn't mind the lack of eye-candy. But as the hours grew later, the scenery improved dramatically...and NO it wasn't the beer goggles, because I was only drinking water or Busch NA (non-alcoholic).

About an hour into the bands set (about 11) this b-e-a-utiful blonde walks in with her two girl friends. She's petite, sexy, cute ass...all the things that I go for. My jaw dropped several times while she was rocking/dancing to the band...definitely someone that I would've loved to have a night out with, if you catch my drift.

Sadly I can't tell you her name. Frank was trying to get me to go buy her a drink...but I just shrugged him off. Sure, I wanted too, but something didn't feel right. Was this something my LACK of "liquid courage"? I don't know...and I sure hope not. ;-(

So I watched from afar. There wasn't any doubt that this chick was my type (sexually)...but she had trouble written all over her. She immitted drama and frustration. Does that make sense? NOW the drunk Jr. would've only had one thing on his mind and it wouldn't have mattered what drama I would've had to put up with. SOBER Jr. however, wanted to give it some time to see what this chick was all about.

I'm glad I did...she wasn't there 15 minutes and had 2 girls ready to kick her ass! LOL. With the band playing as loud as it was, it was hard to decern what exactly was going on, but those girls didn't like her very well, that's for sure. As I figured, something wasn't right with her...drama queen for sure! After everything settled down, this chick was up on the dance floor, by herself, just dancing and rocking like she was taunting those two girls...and those girls were sitting in chairs not two feet from her, facing the dance floor - staring her down, if only looks could kill! So she obviously liked the drama and causing shit. True, I don't know the whole story, but my gut was dead on! D-R-A-M-A queen!

So after seeing all of this, why don't I feel better? OH, that's cause I'm home alone now writting on a blog! LOL. NO, that's not it, I'm just joking. My gut told me something, and for once I was sober enough to listen to it. I guess you can teach an old dog new tricks! ;-)

I guess my fear is that without liquid courage I won't be able to approach women again. Yes, I know it shouldn't matter...and I guess it eventually won't. I haven't met all of my ex-girlfriends while I was drinking...but the last few have been in bars...and we see how those have worked out! LOL. But then again, the ones I have met at places like restuarants and cafes haven't fared any better. Go figure!

So the jury is still out on this one...I just really don't know what to think about the whole situation.

Confused and going to bed! Good night all...thanks for reading.