JR. - 5

Well I never actually expected much from my new outlook on relationships (read previous post). Honestly, it just felt right for me to let go of all the anger and hate and finally forgive people.

So I did that and send out a few friends request both on here and Face Book. I was curious how it was going to be taken. I fully expected some of them to think that I was looking for a Round 2 (or 3 in some cases). That wasn't what I was wanting. I just wanted to clear the air...get all of the demons off my chest. Live and let live...etc.

So that the next time I run into one of my ex's, there won't be any tension, hard feelings, or anger. After all, at one point or another I cared for most of them. In most cases we had in depth conversations about "our" future, goals, etc. So in a way, most of them know me better than some of my friends do.

One friend I heard back from has really opened my eyes to this whole forgive and forget mentality...for the better. I dwelled over that relationship for many years...even while I was other relationships. That wasn't healthy...or fair to my girl friend at that time.

So what I've learned is that the "JR. - 5" (Jr. from 5 years or so ago) wasn't as crazy as he thought. Some of the things that didn't feel right, and he ignored, WERE NOT right...LOL. Other things that he believed, we just lies. I've learned things about my relationships that I didn't know, things that would've made it much easier for me to move on, but not necessarily good at the time to know. I've also learned that I made better impressions that I thought...that was a good confidence booster. This whole experience has opened up my eyes for the better!

But it's also comforting to hear from the other side of my relationships. I've never really sat and thought about how my ex's felt or currently feel after a break up. I always assumed they moved on with their life and were happy with the boy friends/husbands that they found and he's poor "JR. - 5" still looking for Ms. Right.

In reality, I guess some of these ex's had just as much problem getting over our relationships than I did. They would avoid the shared places we hung out. The would drive by my house to see what I was doing. They may think of me when a certain song comes on, or when a certain movie is playing, or smell a certain colgne/perfume. Whatever it was...I WAS probably doing the same.

Realizing this will make it much easier to get over any future relationships that end sour. HOPEFULLY, that won't happen, but come on...let's look at my track record! LOL...I wouldn't even bet on me! ;-)



Thanks for reading everyone...take care!