Riddle Me This, Riddle Me That

Who's afraid of off-the-wall questions? ME! ME! ME!
How is it that a someone can ask me an off-the-wall question and it sends my head into a tailspin and leaves me questioning every step I've taken in my life?
WEIRD! Very WEIRD! That's what happened tonight.
I almost wanted to look back at them like Heath Ledger did as the Joker in "Batman: Dark Night" and lick my lips and say "You wanna know how I got these scars?"
Scars...not in the physical sense, but the emotional ones. But in reality, don't we all have scars. Some may be more obvious to point out than others.
Most of my adult life I have scripted how things would play out, well everything except relationships - good luck with scripting that...and those are really where most of my scars come from.
Now, when I was 19 and joined the Active Army I knew that I would eventually come back to WV. When I was in the Army I knew that I was going to get my degree. When I got back to WV I knew I was going to get a job at Public Debt. And six years ago I knew that I was going to be here for the rest of my life...
Well...Tuesday I had a job interview (phone) with the Department of Veteran's Affairs in Austin, TX. The interview went very well and I really think I will be offered the job.
Will I take it? I don't know...
I have two nephews that I love dearly and I enjoy seeing them regularly. Add to that all my family, friends, co-workers and I've really built up a good life here.
Still though, I was probably 75% likely to take the Austin job if offered to me...that is until tonight.
One simple question, followed by a response question from me, sent my head a spinning!
Now I really don't know what I want!?!?
What does my future hold? Should I control my own destiny and accept the Austin job is offered? Or should I stay in P-burg and see what FATE has in store for me? The only problem is that there are WAY too many "what ifs" here.
What do I really want out of this short time on Earth?

WOW! Remind me not to listen to anymore "JR, I'm gonna be honest with you and I want you to give me an honest answer to this question" QUESTIONS!
EAR MUFFS! ;-)